individual peculiarity....individual streak...
just that woman who chooses to struggle in obscurity than compromise her individualism at the hands of people who are ambiguous about their own identity...
i have had complex relationships - blood relations, colleagues, friends, aquaintances...
some who have sometimes assisted me in looking up the ladder and some who have miraculously helped me in hindering my progress...well time has been an embodiment of human struggle...
its further activated my senses -  not to give in ...but Come around...again and again....how could i lose the only thing that was close to my heart -  my SANITY...
the journey has always been Indifferent to the opinions of OTHERS and i thank my undying spirit for that...
My original inclination has always been to grow BIG...but never by compromising my Morals ...so i began developing a formidable power structure to support my conscience...each time the temptation to rise titillated my psyche I fell back upon that invisible structure -  my Soul...
 I learnt to survive by devising  a gambit and predicting many moves in advance but i was not born to survive...i was born in a free world to Live ...and i did nevertheless..........
I began  thinking that the world did not deserve  sincerity and intellect, because the people around me did not measure up to the standards of what i thought was human ...to be able to reach out to the people I began understanding that people should join in purpose and perspective...but it was a task which was difficult beyond measure............i was careful not to allow anybody to poison my HOPES in my own ideals......
I no LONGER Cared what anyone thought or DID...
As time passed i learned to love and create in a free world , in my own vision, in which I set the standards by which all of us can live regardless of love and hate...
No body can be worthy of my beautiful mind and heart if at any point i have to compromise on my IDEALS...